friends: June 1999 Archives

so what do you do when its over? or at least, youre told its over, even if it doesnt feel that way to you?

*flash*

what about all those things we were going to do?

*flash*

what about all those things I wanted to do for her?

*flash*

what about all those things she was doing for me?

*flash*

ive never wanted anything else in the world this much. Id willingly lay down my life for it. Ive given here smile after smile, the most important things in her life. Ive in some small way managed to convince her of her own beauty. Intelligent converstaion. A laugh when she is in pain. And this isnt enough?

*flash*

Why cant I hate her. Why cant i tell her it was all lies, and that she's an ugly bitch? Besides the fact none of it would be true, I couldnt look in her eyes (whatever) and see the pain the lies would cause.

*flash*

suuuuuuuuure...

plan all night on going to a club. my friends ask me if im going with them. And we stop back at my place so my friend can pick up some stuff he had here. So I wait while he's getting changed in the bathroom. And as soon as he's ready they take off.

What the fuq do you do... invite yourself? after they apparently change their mind?

:P