two shoulders... no waiting

so what do you do when its over? or at least, youre told its over, even if it doesnt feel that way to you?

*flash*

what about all those things we were going to do?

*flash*

what about all those things I wanted to do for her?

*flash*

what about all those things she was doing for me?

*flash*

ive never wanted anything else in the world this much. Id willingly lay down my life for it. Ive given here smile after smile, the most important things in her life. Ive in some small way managed to convince her of her own beauty. Intelligent converstaion. A laugh when she is in pain. And this isnt enough?

*flash*

Why cant I hate her. Why cant i tell her it was all lies, and that she’s an ugly bitch? Besides the fact none of it would be true, I couldnt look in her eyes (whatever) and see the pain the lies would cause.

*flash*