I am… nothing. I have

I am…
nothing.
I have no strong feelings in any direction (other than to castrate the asshole revving his engine out on the street at 11 at night).
I am neither happy or sad, excited or bored. I’ve tried just vegitating in front of the television, but found I had to get up and do something. Of couse, I look around for a while and found I had nothing to do.
Man, I’m not even in the mood to download pornography. What is my world coming to?
It did just occur to me, that I seem to have broken out of my mood swings. I can’t remember the last time I was in a serious funk. And I haven’t been especially hyper or horney about anything in months. (Which isn’t to say my libido is dead… we’re talking a matter of degrees here).
I don’t know why, but this is a very good thing. I ccertianly wouldn’t say that I’m becoming mellow or anything. More like I am once again remembering who I am.
30 days baby… then I’m free. (After all, I’m pretty cheap already.)

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  1. April 27, 2002
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    I don’t think you’re in a funk…
    I feel the same way, most days. I think you’ve maybe realized that most people’s melodramas or excitements are blase. If it doesn’t interest you, or you don’t care, that’s perfectly fine.
    I’ve finished trying to placate friends when they want to argue or have a serious discussion about a subject I just don’t care about. Just remember you are who you are and you are freaking great at what you are, and you’ll sleep like a baby at night.
    By the way, I’m not a professional therapist, I just play one in comments
    ;o)

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