Monthly Archives: January 1999

my apartment, washington, dc

Leave a comment | Posted by Patrick Calder on in design

okay… maybe that child care thing didnt come through… but my taxes are still messed up, or not messed up, depending on how you look at it. Either way, I stand to make some lump some money i think/hope. I finally found the address for sara’s journal page today… got to read most of the stuff for the first time. funny… made me realize why I love her even more.


mmmm… comic book day. (sorry… homer simpson flashback)


splain something to me. you know that little box on your tax forms that says “if you do not need forms mailed to you next year, check here”? Well… I checked it last year… cause I moved out of New York. So what do they do? I just got a letter from the New York Tax Department saying ‘since you didnt want new york tax forms mailed to you, we’re going to mail you a sticker for your new york tax forms’


okay… I remember what i wanted to talk about now…


just when the hell did God say unto man, “you will be a will-less sap. all who claim to represent me may control your life”. All my life Ive seen and heard people support their beliefs and agendas by quoting the Bible. Hasnt this ever occured to anyone to be pretty damn flimsy? Hey… Im a rightous, God-loving dude myself… but why, may I ask, does some 2000 year old guy’s interpretation of religion give some bastard in Georgia the right to condem all homosexuals to hell? Ive done some reading in the book myself… lots of nice stories, with morals and everything. Some songs too. But I gotta tell ya, theres damn few places that even claim to be the exact word of God. And what about those that do? If Jethro, the plumber from two doors down the hall, claimed God said unto him, “blessed are the geek, for they shall inherit the earth”, does that mean you’ll start worshipping Bill Gates as the new messiah?


The Bible is a good thing to read. It has a lot of suggestions on how to lead a moral life. But come on… think for yourself. Religion offers one of the best opportunities out there for intellectual debate. But so many people become bogged down in the scripture, they cant decide if some millenia old lifestyle might not be relavent anymore.


They told me once in Sunday School, when trying to explain evil, that God put us down here, and gave us free will. It made things more meaningful that way. If someone gives their devotion to him because theyve weighed the options, its gotta be worth more than if he compelled worship from the masses.

Please keep in mind that this post is more than 6 years old. Who the hell knows what I was thinking back then?! Damn kids... get off my lawn!

my apartment, washington, dc

Leave a comment | Posted by Patrick Calder on in photo

so i found myself thinking yesterday (always a memorable occasion). If ya look at it, apartment buildings sure look like dorms for old people. You pack a bunch of people into one building… with the shared laundry, mailroom, etc. The differences though are welcome. Private bathrooms. Youve never really had the communal restroom experience until you had to use a stall after a 300 pound drunk korean. And Ive yet to hear latenight panting coming through my walls from the neighbors. Not to mention my kitchen is the size of my college dorm room.


anyways…


i love computers… what they can do. And I enjoy video games all the more. But no one can tell me they dont affect you. Besides the obvious waste of time. Every time I finish playing a game, my mind is spent. I cant concentrate worth shit on anything. Very annoying.


The internet is an amazing thing. I knew about the last set of attacks on Iraq before they anounced it on the radio, by catching a blurb on the CNN homepage. We proceeded to watch live RealVideo footage of the attack. Or when I ordered christmas presents, and the company gives you a tracking number for the package: I was able to find out exactly where the package was at any given minute, and knew when it was waiting for me at home, even though they hadnt put a slip in my mailbox yet. But why cant this wonderful tracking and high-speed updating keep all those presents I ordered from coming in late?


I think I better go eat while this video game wears off.

Please keep in mind that this post is more than 6 years old. Who the hell knows what I was thinking back then?! Damn kids... get off my lawn!

my apartment. washington.dc

Leave a comment | Posted by Patrick Calder on in intangibles

money sucks.

i dunno wether to be thanful or annoyed with my parents. my mother anyways. I grew up piss poor in a small city in the middle of nowhere. Of course, I didnt know it at the time. And even looking back now, we sure lived better than many other families in the same situation. But there we were… living $5000 a year below the poverty line.

So as a result, the idea of conserving money was long ago drilled into me. not so much conserving money, but being responsible I guess. It did me good when I was in school, scrapping by on every last penny i had.

It has gotten out of hand though. I had learned to save money, and any time I ‘splurged’, I would feel bad. This kept me from doing it too often.

Now though, I live on my own. And obviously, you pay for everything yourself when you live on your own. But I no longer feel bad just when I splurg on something. I feel bad everytime I spend money. So, my day to day living, the requirements of life, are causing me grief. Toilet paper should not be a moral dilemma.

Nothing anyone can help with. Nothing a therapist would be able to deal with. Just an irrational paranoia I have to get over with.

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work, washington, dc

Leave a comment | Posted by Patrick Calder on in home

4:44 pm est (cool huh?)

work, washington, dc


So I woke up at 4:30 this morning realizing that I had passed out last
night while ‘just resting for a minute’. So I stumbled over and turned
down the eveangelist screaming from the television; shut off the lights,
stripped down, and went to bed.

Did you know when
you get in bed at 4:30 in the morning, it is damn hard to get comfortable? Oh well… I overslept for work anyways to make up for the time I lost sleeping.

Woohoo… it’s
comics day. You see, all over the coutry, comics are delivered on Wednesdays.
And comic shop owners and collecters (and readers) being the impatient
people they are, the stuff goes on the shelf right away. And yes, I
am one of those freaks. I call it my one addiction. I dont smoke, I
dont drink, I dont do drugs… I gotta have some vice.

Ever go furniture
shopping? it aint easy when you have limited transportation and restricted
funds. there are no discount stores near me. those that are, charge
ya up the wahoo. or else the selection just sux. *sigh*

And lets make this
a step harder… there are no Kmarts, no Walmarts, no Targets, and no
Ames within traveling distance of me.

How the hell do
people do it?

Is anyone interested
in taking over a mother who likes to try and make her son feel guilty
about not talking to her. I’m tempted to remind her that she hasnt written
or called me in just as long a period.

*shiteatinggrain*

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work, washington, dc

Leave a comment | Posted by Patrick Calder on in photo

It can be interesting working here. We’re less than a block from the white house. THE white house.

I went for a walk at lunch today. From the road blocks and security, Id say Bill and Hillary were going for a stroll. The Secret Service was as conspicuous as ever (while my spelling remains a disaster). The guy on the corner was preaching Judgement Day, starting with the presidency. Personally, I hope my God has more important things on his mind than who the president is screwing.

I’m scared… downloaded some new microsoft products today – Explorer and Outlook – and they were good. Isnt this one of the signs of the armageddon? I may just have to break my own ban on Microsft products on my personal computer to install Outlook.

Spent some time looking at the new Macintosh G3’s… with the new cases (Yosemites). They are suuhhhhweet. Decked out with enough hardware to make John Wayne Bobbit jealous, and a funky case that puts even the iMac to shame.

This week alone,
I think ive gotten 3 or 4 comments from people around the world on the site i did for work. Now if I could just get credit for it… help starting my freelance web design business.

I’m gonna try to
go back to work now… it’s a slow day though… I may be back.

(yes, i do love
those triple dots "…")

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my apartment, washington, dc

Leave a comment | Posted by Patrick Calder on in friends

Have you ever met your other self?

That person who completes something within you. They tell you that they love you, and you dont even think to question it. You find yourself really trusting someone for the first time in your life. Your heart warms at a smile, and you wish a touch would never end.

sara-n-me

I have.

anyways…

work again today. found out i may be getting a much big tax refund… seems the IRS thought I had about 4600 bucks in child care taxes to pay. granted… the closest I come to having kids are the roaches in the bathroom at work.

and i rush home to work on this ridiculous site. this apartment is a mess. but the most annoying thing is i cant even really clean it up. I have no where to put anything. i am sans furniture.

i cant write tonight.

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my apartment, washington, dc

Leave a comment | Posted by Patrick Calder on in friends

This morning, I climbed into bed to hold her in my arms.

Some bad humor to cover a difficult moment.

A parting kiss that could never suffice.

Home seems awfully lonely right now.

Better go to bed now… alone.

Please keep in mind that this post is more than 6 years old. Who the hell knows what I was thinking back then?! Damn kids... get off my lawn!